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You cannot simulate schizophrenia. The only metaphor I can attempt to make people begin to comprehend what the feeling of a dark day for my bullshit is like hearing your name being called from an unknown origin. Confusion. Panicked. Desperate for relief. The thing is you never know. Sorry. You're not even attempting normalcy. Most people exaggerate self talk. And you're not walking down the street with your street bag. It writing something like this without severe medication. Indignant? Absolutely. I have that right. This is equivalent to describing PTSD for someone who has been to war but you haven't. Anyway. You have no idea the fucking hell. Absolutely you do not.
This video reminds me of my 1st year of college. I had an elementary course on art and design where we need to create an artful rhythm of lines and dots. Suddenly one student in front of me was busy talking to someone I can not see and then she left the room after saying "Okay alright I'll help you" and we were left speechless. We thought she was talking with some kind of demons or paranormal beings. She was lost for days and later was found far from our campus area. Turns out she had schizophrenia. She was admitted to a psychiatrist afterwards and spend all semester off of college. Haven't seen her afterwards because we were from a different major (she was from fine arts I guess? I was in graphic design).
I worked with schizophrenics for many years I thought I had some good insight into what they were going through. This video really shows you how auditory hallucinations can disrupt your concentration. I have had ring in my ear for about 6 weeks. It is a hissing sound in my right ear and at time I lose focus of things around be just from that.
If you think auditory hallucinations are hard, at least you don't have it with smell and taste. When my meds were off, I spent a week unable to eat because everything tasted and smelled like mold. I got so hungry I just lay in bed crying, because everything I put near my face made me gag so hard it was impossible to eat or drink. Then there was the time when all colors in my mind turned off and I couldn't understand ANYTHING because half the world became invisable to me. Not grey, just non-existant. I could make out eyes and outlines, but that was about it. Schitzophrenia can truly be terrifying when it strikes hard.
I don't know if I could cope with this. My cousin had schizophrenia and my grandma said it was hard for him to watch TV and movies because of the voices, he couldn't concentrate. I can now totally see why. What a terrible illness to have.
This is exactly what I hear in my head everyday of my life! I never thought I’d see my experience on TV it’s actually very emotional for me cause since this started at 15 I’m no longer the student I used to be! I can barely have a normal conversation with people if I don’t tell them to shut up but then there’s a fear of someone seeing or hearing me talk back to them. It’s like I wear my illness on my forehead. I’m very thankful for this simulation more people need to do this before passing judgment on someone.
It's different than voices in your ears. Earphones do not do them justice.
The voices are more like telepathic messages because they happen in your brain.
Your own thoughts and the voices mingle together. Sometimes you don't even know which is which.
I'm not schizophrenic. But someone close to me was and told me all this.
My mom was paranoid schizophrenic. I understand when he said he wanted to talk back to them. She did all the time. Then they would stop, and we thought she was better. But then they would show up again and life was hell.
In my personal experience ‘voices’ can indeed be distracting, but other times they can be unsettling; malicious even. It often becomes distressing, like having a conversation with a loved one while your subconscious is telling you to hit them in the face. I’m not a violent person and honestly don’t see a situation happening where I ever would be, but it still is quite scary knowing that there is something awful and abusive inside of you clawing to get out and express itself like a totally separate entity. I usually just talk to myself to drown out these intrusive thoughts.
I’ve never actually been diagnosed formally, but that’s mostly because I’d lie back when I was receiving treatment for clinical depression and ADHD, which in hindsight is more than likely a byproduct of these ‘voices’.
My brother was schizophrenic and was killed by a police officer 2 years ago. My brother always talked back to the voices and when my family didn’t know why he was doing these things, it was the most frustrating thing we as a family ever went through. It was like one day I had a perfectly normal brother, then out of nowhere he had turned into a completely different person. He died shortly after his schizophrenia became obvious so we never had a chance to try and get him the help he so desperately needed. It’s interesting to see what my brother went through on a daily basis. I’m glad I found this CNN special.
Holy fuck this is eye opening. My mom and like 3/4 of my cousins r diagnosed schizophrenic and I've been wearing it my whole life. This is fucking exactly how I feel all fucking day every fucking day. God damnit this is my worst fear in my life realizing I'm gonna end up like them. I literally got tears dripping off my belly button right now realizing that there is no avoiding it.
This is very realistic. I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder & dissociative fugue. Not only are the constant voices a problem but while driving I have a constant fear that I'm going to wake from a dream of me driving and it be total chaos. The white lines of the road begins to move at night giving the impression the road curves when it doesn't and I see dark objects constantly run into the road. I installed lower lights that illuminate the road better and that seems to help.
I can't imagine the simulator would even be that good... for a real schizophrenic in public they are hearing real people talking just out of earshot ... just like anyone else.
The difference is their mind will fill in the spaces so they might think the group across the room are talking *to* them. The friends they know at a party are talking about how they are fat .. or gay .. or what-ever they are insecure about ... over and over again. So it' often not just real voices ... but real people that you actually know ... saying specific things about you maybe even stuff they've actually said before.
It's mixed in with *real* noises ... and thus hard to convince yourself that the other stuff isn't real.
pacify...freaked me out and I didnt know why...really bothered me...then I remembered she was a character on a bbc tv series I watched. That whole thing bothered me...can anyone else relate to the scolding lady?
I'm not schizophrenic but I wouldn't be able to do the origami bit in a silent room under the best of circumstances. I'm good at math-y, conceptual things but I suck at "spacial" or "dimensional" puzzles, like origami, or the parts of IQ tests where one has to determine, for example, how many loops are in a knot or creating a shape without folding x y or z.
I was diagnosed at 16th with schizophrenia paranoia but I actually never experience all those voice at all ,I didn't even see "imaginery people". But yes I was medicated really fast and stop a couple years ago. I just want to say that all schizophrenic are not the same. I never experience what we saw in the video yet I have it .
This isn't what hearing voices is like at all. It's hard to explain because it's not other peoples voices although they can sound different , male, female, high pitched, deeper etc. But there isn't that awareness that the voices aren't part of you because what they're saying and telling you to do comes from your own psyche and you feel this compulsion to listen to them. When they're telling you "YOU'RE SHIT" you feel like shit and when they're telling you "That person wants to kill you" you feel real fear. I think hearing a bunch of externalized voices like that would definitely be distracting, but it's not really a true parallel to what schizophrenia is like.
My experience with this was really terrible and lonely and it was hard to be around others because if I tried to talk to somebody then the symptoms would get out of control so it was hard. I mostly heard whispers like this and it scared me and being in school with this people would stare at me and God was the only one who I could turn to for help <3 he helped me when I needed him the most. He brought hope into my life and now I can live a normal life <3 Thank you Jesus!!
The controversial doc The Bridge is about suicide by Golden Gate Bridge, I believe it's still up but be warned you will see people jumping to their deaths in real time. One of the stories was on a schizophrenic woman and the filmmakers interviewed her siblings and mother. The sister and mother were completely open and understanding to the fact that the woman's lifelong mental illness caused her suicide. The woman's surviving brother became a born again fundie nut and because of his belief in the fire dog, pushed the fiction of someone in the hospital she lived in put her up to killing herself. I think he needs to see this segment to get real. But most likely he'll know who AC is and immediately hate him for loving a man.
My aunt lived with this. She was a straight A student before it hit her when she was like 22. It's just this one defect in their brains. It's like their dream reality is leaking over into their waking reality.
This is my life since I was 14!
Am I ......?!
I guess so, since I live alone in a room by myself and haven't talked with anybody in a year except the supermarket cashier!
The good news are it will be over in a week or so... Bye bye ugly world!
It's a real thing...especially the shut up. It sucks. It's like demons in hour head playing over and over again. Much respect for you to experience that. Can you now respect the people dealing with it? When I was 18, I was confronted by my ex bf's friend's mother with a shotgun while purchasing a car from her son. It was scary. I hope she has gotten better . So glad she has a family that lived her.